I have a name to my condition, the Anniversary Effect. Thank you Nightwing for bringing this to my attention. Feeling less shameful about...

It sits right on my chest. Where does it sit for you? I have friends who report their stomachs, but that’s not where it is for me. It is...

I’m giving myself some props today in light of yesterday. A reminder (again) that you NEVER know how the day will end, even if you...

I’m at the hospital. We just finished a ROUGH round of immunotherapy. It is crazy that there is no rhyme nor reason to his reactions. I...

A friend reached out for advice. Advice on how you can reach your new normal mentally. How you can accept reality and find peace. At...

Jacob’s scans were clear!!! We are still in remission. Very thankful. We are going into memory-making mode. OVERDRIVE. We have three...

New normal. I hated that phrase. It would illicit a good eye roll from me every time. And I heard it a LOT. Even cancer moms would say...

Jacob is angry. Jacob is crying all the time. Jacob is yelling. Jacob is picking his skin until it scars. I am worried about Jacob and...

I can’t write. I always write about how I am feeling, but now I can’t do that anymore. It’s just an endless cycle of pity, guilt, and...

When things were really dark this summer… When I was living in the hospital with Jacob and left alone at night to google searches of...

While the world’s attention has been hijacked, mine hasn’t. I continue to read, think, about cancer. If anything my speed is increasing....

The rope doesn’t seem to have an end. Just when you think you are at the end of it…nope more. Just when you think you can’t take anymore,...

You may not recall but we had a date. MAY 20th. We were going to pop bottles! We were going to celebrate! We were definitely planning...

I’ve been playing a game for years. I can’t say it is fun, but it is addictive.  I can’t even say how it ends as it has no hard stop. And...

It started as a convenience. It was just easier. Formulating the spoken word was near to impossible. Half due to logistics. I was living...

How do we do it cancer mom? People ask me all the time. I’m sure you get your lot of questions too. Today, like the last two days, we...