Are you in need of some good news? Here is one! Jacob is NEAD (No evidence of active disease) We are cancer free over here! First time...

Our 3 months are up. That is our schedule. Three months of life at a time. Three months of breath at a time. Three months… It’s scan...

Today was Jacob’s last infusion of immunotherapy. The last day of writhing pain. The last day of fevers of 105 and late night hospital...

New therapy to combat PTSD that is helping me, this one I invented by accident. But warning cancer moms and dads and any trauma...

2 steps forward, 1 leap back. That is how the PTSD experience has felt so far. I had about 4 consecutive good days. I was ready to...

Trauma vs. stress That has been my big question recently. How do you know something is traumatic? How do you know if you have suffered a...

It has come full circle again. The whole thing started with a search of narratives. Narratives that came before me. Hearing other women’s...

Body. I’ve never really considered my relationship with my body. Or rather I’ve never really even thought of my body beyond the immediate...

Physics. Let’s talk Physics. The First Law of Thermodynamics (Conservation) states that energy is always conserved, it cannot be...

I’m back in research mode. I guess that is where I cope. Trying to learn to solve. Trying to get my body under control. I can’t live like...

How does one go from a very capable human to a mess? No, Seriously do you know how? And if yes, how do you undo it? I am very capable, I...

Maybe it’s strategic. Just enough space to watch from a far, but still close enough to strike. Never more than ten feet away. I can get...

Things are better. Its true naming something does help. Knowing that I wasn’t going crazy was helpful and thank you Nightwing for...